Thursday, July 24, 2008
okays ive not been blogging lately due to work. aiya last time nvr blog coz of school. =) excuses!
so neways..life's been a little hectic + emotionally testing for the past few weeks. im too lazy to tell it, so i'll let my bro do it. this was taken from his blog.. plus i was at work when it happened. and i'm damn happy my bro, being the last minute kind of person he is hadn't leave for school when he should have since he would have started class at 8.30 i think. Here goes..
"By far the most emotional ride ive been in started when my mom shouted my name early in the morning before school
realised that my father had difficulty breathing and was pale and wasnt replying to any response
the most logical thing to do is to call 995
So I did just that
Then he said that he his left chest is extremely painful
I did not know what to do
The only thing I did was to rub his chest in an attempt to soothe the pain
At that point of time I felt so helpless that I broke down in front of my father seeing him in extreme pain. Moments later paramedics came and took him n my mum
I wanted to follow them but mum said that I should go to school
On the way to school,thoughts were running through my mind
like what will hapen when if he was gone.
I'd probably take up jobs to support my family,I cant bare to see my mom being the sole breadwinner
there were lots of things that I want him to see,like his grandchildren
Ive still haven given them the luxurious life that they deserve.
I want them to retire early and enjoy their golden years.
Thats the best reward any children could give their parents.I broke down thinking about negative stuff
Thankfully friends were there to give me support
then I learnt from the docs that his main artery was 100% blocked and his 2 minor arteries was 25% blocked....it was a heart attack.
And this is happening to a guy that jogs almost daily..Then doc told us that it was a serious heart attack and the one he had in the morning had him at 50% chance of survival and he survived it..Alhamdullilah
God can take anything anytime..."
Got a call from bro when he reached sch. he has never called me this early before and if there was neting he'll just msg. picking up the phone i knew something was wrong but not to my dad of all people.. all he knew was that my dad had a hard time breathing so he was rushed to TTSH. called mum and she broke down. of course i did too. the docs were doing ballooning. its where they insert smth into the artery to clear it. quickly rush to the hosp. luckily the place i work at was near the hospital. that was when we found out it was a heart attack..
ppl at work were great. took the day off and i hope i dun have to take another day off for this kind of situation anytime soon.. but i have a feeling i will. my grandmas condition is getting worse. cancer from the lung had spread to her liver. once there the docs cant do neting already furthermore she's too old to go under the knife. ive yet to get over the shock of my dad and my struck by another one. if my grandma has to go i just pray she goes peacefully. two tell tale signs have sprung up eversince the cancer spread to her liver:
1. my uncle dreamnt that my grandma was toking to my late-grandad. which can be interpreted that my grandma is going to join him, but we just dunot noe when.
2. she sees stuff. 'people' rather. in her house. she saw a lady with her child at the corner of the house. the child was damn hungry so she made for him some food, put it in a bowl and placed it at the corner of the house where they were. the other one was when she was cooking she said that there was a lady behind her cooking sardines but didnt share with her any.
i know some of you may not believe in this kind of things but i do. the line between reality and the other realm is blurred for her. thus whenever she tells us these tings she says it as though its normal. and we can only tell her to pray and tend to her every needs. i just hope my uncle and aunt can get a flight back soon..
so said iNa` on Thursday, July 24, 2008
